Contrition lyrics - Defeater
Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners
Now and at the hour of our death
Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners
Now and at the hour of our death
Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners
Now and at the hour of our death
Forgive me, my father
For I am a sinner
Forgive me, my father
For I am a sinner
Forgive me, my father
For I am a sinner
Forgive me, my father
For I am a sinner
Forgive me, my father
For I am a sinner
Forgive me, my father
For I am a sinner
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Forgive me, my father
For I am a sinner
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Forgive me, my father
For I am a sinner
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered
Now and at the hour of our death
Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners
Now and at the hour of our death
Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners
Now and at the hour of our death
Forgive me, my father
For I am a sinner
Forgive me, my father
For I am a sinner
Forgive me, my father
For I am a sinner
Forgive me, my father
For I am a sinner
Forgive me, my father
For I am a sinner
Forgive me, my father
For I am a sinner
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Forgive me, my father
For I am a sinner
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Forgive me, my father
For I am a sinner
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered
Unanswered lyrics - Defeater
I was a good man once, I was a good man once
But years of unanswered prayers have left me faithless
I was a good man once but now hopeless and abandoned
I was a good man once, I was a good man once
But years of serving in hell have left me faithless
I was a good man once but now hopeless and abandoned
Now hopeless and abandoned
Hopeless and abandoned
I was a good man once, I was a good man once
But years of unanswered prayers have left me faithless
I was a good man once but now hopeless and abandoned
I was a good man once, I was a good man once
But years of serving in hell have left me faithless
I was a good man once but now hopeless and abandoned
I let the pain in my head to the veins in my arms to rush
I feel the burn in my blood in my lungs in my chest collapse
I feel the ache in my guts as the memories and hurt flood back
When all I want to feel, when all I want to feel is nothing
I let the pain in my head to the veins in my arms to rush
I feel the burn in my blood in my lungs in my chest collapse
I feel the ache in my guts as the memories and hurt flood back
When all I want to feel, when all I want to feel
I was a good man once, I was a good man once
But years of unanswered prayers have left me faithless
I was a good man once but now hopeless and abandoned
I was a good man once, I was a good man once
But years of serving in hell have left me faithless
I was a good man once but now hopeless and abandoned
Now hopeless and abandoned. hopeless and abandoned
Forgive me, my father, for I am a sinner
Unanswered, abandoned, unanswered, abandoned
Forgive me, my father, for I am a sinner
Unanswered, abandoned, unanswered
I was a good man once...
But years of unanswered prayers have left me faithless
I was a good man once but now hopeless and abandoned
I was a good man once, I was a good man once
But years of serving in hell have left me faithless
I was a good man once but now hopeless and abandoned
Now hopeless and abandoned
Hopeless and abandoned
I was a good man once, I was a good man once
But years of unanswered prayers have left me faithless
I was a good man once but now hopeless and abandoned
I was a good man once, I was a good man once
But years of serving in hell have left me faithless
I was a good man once but now hopeless and abandoned
I let the pain in my head to the veins in my arms to rush
I feel the burn in my blood in my lungs in my chest collapse
I feel the ache in my guts as the memories and hurt flood back
When all I want to feel, when all I want to feel is nothing
I let the pain in my head to the veins in my arms to rush
I feel the burn in my blood in my lungs in my chest collapse
I feel the ache in my guts as the memories and hurt flood back
When all I want to feel, when all I want to feel
I was a good man once, I was a good man once
But years of unanswered prayers have left me faithless
I was a good man once but now hopeless and abandoned
I was a good man once, I was a good man once
But years of serving in hell have left me faithless
I was a good man once but now hopeless and abandoned
Now hopeless and abandoned. hopeless and abandoned
Forgive me, my father, for I am a sinner
Unanswered, abandoned, unanswered, abandoned
Forgive me, my father, for I am a sinner
Unanswered, abandoned, unanswered
I was a good man once...
December 1943 lyrics - Defeater
I can't remember (Remember)
Each time it slipped right through my fingers
The eyes and faces of my brothers (My brothers)
They never made it back home to their mothers
And all I remember (Remember)
Of 1943 December
Me and Sullivan behind the line, we gathered (We gathered)
[?] to hold the match to the fire
The smoke lead the way back to [?]
My disbelief in what we built for me
Bogged down with no warning, no hope
No hands to hold, no hands to pray for me
No hands to hold, no hands to pray
No hands to hold, no hands to pray
No hands to hold, no hands to pray
No hands to hold
And I remember
The prayers my mother's mother taught her
And no, I don't believe her
I'd be dead with my fellow men and the preacher
No hands to pray
If I should die before, before I wake
I pray the lord for my soul, my soul to take
No hands to hold, no hands to pray
No hands to hold, no hands to pray for me
No hands to fold, no hands to pray
No hands to hold, no hands to pray for me
No hands to fold, no hands to pray
No hands to hold, no hands to pray for me
Each time it slipped right through my fingers
The eyes and faces of my brothers (My brothers)
They never made it back home to their mothers
And all I remember (Remember)
Of 1943 December
Me and Sullivan behind the line, we gathered (We gathered)
[?] to hold the match to the fire
The smoke lead the way back to [?]
My disbelief in what we built for me
Bogged down with no warning, no hope
No hands to hold, no hands to pray for me
No hands to hold, no hands to pray
No hands to hold, no hands to pray
No hands to hold, no hands to pray
No hands to hold
And I remember
The prayers my mother's mother taught her
And no, I don't believe her
I'd be dead with my fellow men and the preacher
No hands to pray
If I should die before, before I wake
I pray the lord for my soul, my soul to take
No hands to hold, no hands to pray
No hands to hold, no hands to pray for me
No hands to fold, no hands to pray
No hands to hold, no hands to pray for me
No hands to fold, no hands to pray
No hands to hold, no hands to pray for me
Spared In Hell lyrics - Defeater
I’ve never heard the voice of god, I’ve found no trace of heaven either.
Since I was spared in hell I repay the old chaplain that saved me.
I spend my days with the good book, follow every chapter, prayer and verse.
I spend my nights with my vices just to find some proof in the words.
I’ve never heard the voice of god, I’ve found no trace of heaven either.
To try and forget my time in hell, I raise a glass to the saint that saved me.
I spend my days with the bottle, lie in every chapter, prayer and verse.
My nights spent burying demons to find some weight in the words.
Please let me find some weight in the words.
Please let me find some weight in the words.
Please let me find some weight in the words.
Please let me find some weight in the words.
Lord, let me down. Lord, let me down.
I find no proof in the words, no vestige of hope or the lord.
Lord, let me down, lord. Lord, let me down.
I find no proof in the words, no vestige of hope or the lord.
Lord, let me down, lord. Lord, let me down.
Let me down, lord. Let me down.
Since I was spared in hell I repay the old chaplain that saved me.
I spend my days with the good book, follow every chapter, prayer and verse.
I spend my nights with my vices just to find some proof in the words.
I’ve never heard the voice of god, I’ve found no trace of heaven either.
To try and forget my time in hell, I raise a glass to the saint that saved me.
I spend my days with the bottle, lie in every chapter, prayer and verse.
My nights spent burying demons to find some weight in the words.
Please let me find some weight in the words.
Please let me find some weight in the words.
Please let me find some weight in the words.
Please let me find some weight in the words.
Lord, let me down. Lord, let me down.
I find no proof in the words, no vestige of hope or the lord.
Lord, let me down, lord. Lord, let me down.
I find no proof in the words, no vestige of hope or the lord.
Lord, let me down, lord. Lord, let me down.
Let me down, lord. Let me down.
Divination lyrics - Defeater
I walk in shadows and darkness
I feel the feel of the sand
My words are calloused and poisoned
Easy work, the more idle the hand
Cover my tracks with a pulpit
The back alley's my arms
My veins are thinning in poisons
Lying tongues in mouths of snakes, guile charm
I feel the feel of the sand
I feel the feel of the sin
I feel the feel of the sand
I feel the feel
Breathe addiction and darkness
I feel the smoke in my lungs
My words are venom and poisoned
All lies except when speaking of love
Cover my ears to the ringing
To the memories and pain
Her voice like singing of sirens
Drown myself among the rocks and the waves
I feel the feel of the sand
My veins, the touch of her hands
I feel the feel of the sin
The acid touch of her hand
I feel the feel of the sand
My veins, the touch of her hands
I feel the feel of the sin
I feel the feel
In my hour of darkness
I feel the feel of the sin
My wounds are calloused and poisoned
Easy work, the more idle the hand
Cover my tracks with a pulpit
The back alley's my arms
My veins are thinning in poison
Lying tongues in mouths of snakes, guile charm
I feel the feel of the sand
Pray to the dirt for repent
I feel the feel of the sin
My veins, the touch of her hands
I feel the feel of the sand
My words are calloused and poisoned
Easy work, the more idle the hand
Cover my tracks with a pulpit
The back alley's my arms
My veins are thinning in poisons
Lying tongues in mouths of snakes, guile charm
I feel the feel of the sand
I feel the feel of the sin
I feel the feel of the sand
I feel the feel
Breathe addiction and darkness
I feel the smoke in my lungs
My words are venom and poisoned
All lies except when speaking of love
Cover my ears to the ringing
To the memories and pain
Her voice like singing of sirens
Drown myself among the rocks and the waves
I feel the feel of the sand
My veins, the touch of her hands
I feel the feel of the sin
The acid touch of her hand
I feel the feel of the sand
My veins, the touch of her hands
I feel the feel of the sin
I feel the feel
In my hour of darkness
I feel the feel of the sin
My wounds are calloused and poisoned
Easy work, the more idle the hand
Cover my tracks with a pulpit
The back alley's my arms
My veins are thinning in poison
Lying tongues in mouths of snakes, guile charm
I feel the feel of the sand
Pray to the dirt for repent
I feel the feel of the sin
My veins, the touch of her hands
Borrowed & Blue lyrics - Defeater
Crows sing, early morning
Just before sunrise
Our night spent with the guilt
Until morning light
We share a cigarette, burdens and shame
Our lungs heavy in bliss
Our arms are sore from the weight
I may be a sinner
Forsaken and damned
Selfish and pride for the touch of her hand
Our lips speak in secrets
Our tongues lie in verse
Our hearts slow with the guilt
Our love, our only recourse
And we share a cigarette, burdens and shame
Our lungs heavy in bliss
Our arms are sore from the weight
I may be a sinner
Forsaken and damned
Selfish and pride for the touch of her hand
And I will hold you close with the ebb and flow
Though the tides may turn, we won't
And I will hold you tight like an anchor line
Through the cruelest seas at night
And I will hold you close with the ebb and flow
While the tides may turn, we won't
And I will hold you tight like an anchor line
Through the cruelest seas at night
We share a cigarette, burdens and shame
Our lungs heavy in bliss
Our arms are sore from the weight
I may be a sinner
Forsaken and damned
Selfish and pride for the touch of her hand
"Keep me like an old tune, something borrowed and blue
Bury me sound asleep beneath the boards in your room. I love you still and true. So watch me move at your will just like the tides for the moon."
Just before sunrise
Our night spent with the guilt
Until morning light
We share a cigarette, burdens and shame
Our lungs heavy in bliss
Our arms are sore from the weight
I may be a sinner
Forsaken and damned
Selfish and pride for the touch of her hand
Our lips speak in secrets
Our tongues lie in verse
Our hearts slow with the guilt
Our love, our only recourse
And we share a cigarette, burdens and shame
Our lungs heavy in bliss
Our arms are sore from the weight
I may be a sinner
Forsaken and damned
Selfish and pride for the touch of her hand
And I will hold you close with the ebb and flow
Though the tides may turn, we won't
And I will hold you tight like an anchor line
Through the cruelest seas at night
And I will hold you close with the ebb and flow
While the tides may turn, we won't
And I will hold you tight like an anchor line
Through the cruelest seas at night
We share a cigarette, burdens and shame
Our lungs heavy in bliss
Our arms are sore from the weight
I may be a sinner
Forsaken and damned
Selfish and pride for the touch of her hand
"Keep me like an old tune, something borrowed and blue
Bury me sound asleep beneath the boards in your room. I love you still and true. So watch me move at your will just like the tides for the moon."
Penance lyrics - Defeater
These unfamiliar streets where I hide my face and name
And these secrets that I keep. Every stranger looks the same
The cold New England air rips the will from my blood
And I replace it with the ache, the ash, the dirt, and lack of love
No hands to hold, no hands to pray (for me)
My lover left alone, my lover left to grieve and mourn
My sins, my cross to bear, the guilt and vows I broke in turn
My lover left alone, my lover left to grieve and mourn
My sins, my cross to bear, the guilt and vows I broke in turn
Most precious sacrament, tip the bottle in prayer each night
With one hand to the altar and the other to the wine
The parish pours out from the church, snow is falling quietly
Let it fall, cover my steps into the dark end of the street
No hands to hold, no hands to pray for me
My lover left alone, my lover left to grieve and mourn
My sins, my cross to bear, the guilt and vows I broke in turn
My lover left alone, my lover left to grieve and mourn
My sins, my cross to bear, the guilt and vows I broke in turn
And these secrets that I keep. Every stranger looks the same
The cold New England air rips the will from my blood
And I replace it with the ache, the ash, the dirt, and lack of love
No hands to hold, no hands to pray (for me)
My lover left alone, my lover left to grieve and mourn
My sins, my cross to bear, the guilt and vows I broke in turn
My lover left alone, my lover left to grieve and mourn
My sins, my cross to bear, the guilt and vows I broke in turn
Most precious sacrament, tip the bottle in prayer each night
With one hand to the altar and the other to the wine
The parish pours out from the church, snow is falling quietly
Let it fall, cover my steps into the dark end of the street
No hands to hold, no hands to pray for me
My lover left alone, my lover left to grieve and mourn
My sins, my cross to bear, the guilt and vows I broke in turn
My lover left alone, my lover left to grieve and mourn
My sins, my cross to bear, the guilt and vows I broke in turn
Remorse lyrics - Defeater
The days since we last spoke turned to weeks, turned to months, turned to years
You were heavy with child with your arms around a stranger in fear
I had the burn in my blood, I had the ash in my veins, had the lies I keep hid between teeth
The boy must never know about me, never know of my face. Between us, hold these secrets we keep
My penance, in your name
"Hail Mary, have mercy
I dread the loss of heaven, living in hell
Forgive me my Father, for I am a sinner"
Rain taps on the window. Burning red neon sign pushes it's way through the blinds
Sleep never comes easy. Sinking guts, lacking faith and on the nod every night
Dim glow of the street lights, forgotten tenement for the damned
No cut of the cloth here, just another broken man waiting, praying for death
My penance in your name
My penance in your name
"Hail Mary, have mercy
I dread the loss of heaven, living in hell
Forgive me my Father, for I am a sinner"
You were heavy with child with your arms around a stranger in fear
I had the burn in my blood, I had the ash in my veins, had the lies I keep hid between teeth
The boy must never know about me, never know of my face. Between us, hold these secrets we keep
My penance, in your name
"Hail Mary, have mercy
I dread the loss of heaven, living in hell
Forgive me my Father, for I am a sinner"
Rain taps on the window. Burning red neon sign pushes it's way through the blinds
Sleep never comes easy. Sinking guts, lacking faith and on the nod every night
Dim glow of the street lights, forgotten tenement for the damned
No cut of the cloth here, just another broken man waiting, praying for death
My penance in your name
My penance in your name
"Hail Mary, have mercy
I dread the loss of heaven, living in hell
Forgive me my Father, for I am a sinner"
Pillar Of Salt lyrics - Defeater
Nights chasing ghosts, asleep in the pews.
Vacant and still, your arm in a noose.
Pillar of salt, we can never look back.
The lies we have led, we are cursed in our past.
We are cursed in our past.
We are cursed in our death.
A penance paid for in blood.
The guilt staining my hands.
My lover stolen from me.
Thieving Father be damned.
No mercy on me.
Myself and sins I detest.
Devil lying in wait collecting his debts.
No hope. No hope.
Communion of saints, of bread, body and wine.
Quiet and still, drinking me dry.
God left here long ago, heavy lies a thorned crown.
In pride and in spite, no faith to be found.
We are cursed in our past.
We are cursed in our death.
A penance paid for in blood.
The guilt staining my hands.
My lover stolen from me.
Thieving Father be damned.
No mercy on me.
Myself and sins I detest.
Devil lying in wait collecting his debts.
Collecting his debts.
Collecting his debts.
No mercy on me.
Myself and sins I detest.
Devil lying in wait collecting his debts.
No hope. No hope.
Vacant and still, your arm in a noose.
Pillar of salt, we can never look back.
The lies we have led, we are cursed in our past.
We are cursed in our past.
We are cursed in our death.
A penance paid for in blood.
The guilt staining my hands.
My lover stolen from me.
Thieving Father be damned.
No mercy on me.
Myself and sins I detest.
Devil lying in wait collecting his debts.
No hope. No hope.
Communion of saints, of bread, body and wine.
Quiet and still, drinking me dry.
God left here long ago, heavy lies a thorned crown.
In pride and in spite, no faith to be found.
We are cursed in our past.
We are cursed in our death.
A penance paid for in blood.
The guilt staining my hands.
My lover stolen from me.
Thieving Father be damned.
No mercy on me.
Myself and sins I detest.
Devil lying in wait collecting his debts.
Collecting his debts.
Collecting his debts.
No mercy on me.
Myself and sins I detest.
Devil lying in wait collecting his debts.
No hope. No hope.
Atonement lyrics - Defeater
I’ve been slipping away
I’ve been losing the days
I’ve been letting my vices drink from me
No holy spirit, no resurrection
I’ve been hoping on death, faith forgotten in theft
Years of heartache and guilt haunting my sleep
No holy spirit, no salvation
Hopeless and abandoned
Hopeless and abandoned
Been waiting, a lifetime to hear that voice
Speaking quiet and low, carries the weight of the world
I can hear him helpless between words
Been paying a lifelong sins penance
Speaking quiet and low, lay down the weight of the world
Find some solace and comfort in the word
"What brings you here my son
What brings you here my son"
Hopeless and abandoned
Hopeless and abandoned
I’ve been slipping away
I’ve been losing the days
I’ve been letting the needle bleed from me
No holy spirit, no resurrection
I’ve been hoping on death, faith forgotten in theft
Years of heartache and guilt haunting my sleep
No holy spirit, no salvation
Hopeless and abandoned
Hopeless and abandoned
I’ve been losing the days
I’ve been letting my vices drink from me
No holy spirit, no resurrection
I’ve been hoping on death, faith forgotten in theft
Years of heartache and guilt haunting my sleep
No holy spirit, no salvation
Hopeless and abandoned
Hopeless and abandoned
Been waiting, a lifetime to hear that voice
Speaking quiet and low, carries the weight of the world
I can hear him helpless between words
Been paying a lifelong sins penance
Speaking quiet and low, lay down the weight of the world
Find some solace and comfort in the word
"What brings you here my son
What brings you here my son"
Hopeless and abandoned
Hopeless and abandoned
I’ve been slipping away
I’ve been losing the days
I’ve been letting the needle bleed from me
No holy spirit, no resurrection
I’ve been hoping on death, faith forgotten in theft
Years of heartache and guilt haunting my sleep
No holy spirit, no salvation
Hopeless and abandoned
Hopeless and abandoned
Vice & Regret lyrics - Defeater
[Speaking:]
"Remember not the sins
Offenses of my youth
According to thy mercy think upon me
Oh lord for thy goodness
Blessed are they that mourn
For they shall be comforted
Our father which art in heaven
Hallowed be thy name
Thy kingdom come
Thy will be done"
Grief and failure
Burn in my veins
Vice and regret, coursing through me
Breathe in defeat, feel it aching
Cold black heartbreak, lungs collapsing
Dear departed, violent hands
Faith forgotten, no redemption
Heart rate fallen, coffin timber
Committed to earth, by the hands of your father
Glory be, bloodline buried
I am no one, I am nothing
Glory be, bloodline buried
I am no one, I am nothing
Forgive me my father, for I am a sinner
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Forgive me my father, for I am a sinner
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Glory be, bloodline buried
I am no one, I am nothing
Glory be, bloodline buried
I am no one, I am nothing
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
"Remember not the sins
Offenses of my youth
According to thy mercy think upon me
Oh lord for thy goodness
Blessed are they that mourn
For they shall be comforted
Our father which art in heaven
Hallowed be thy name
Thy kingdom come
Thy will be done"
Grief and failure
Burn in my veins
Vice and regret, coursing through me
Breathe in defeat, feel it aching
Cold black heartbreak, lungs collapsing
Dear departed, violent hands
Faith forgotten, no redemption
Heart rate fallen, coffin timber
Committed to earth, by the hands of your father
Glory be, bloodline buried
I am no one, I am nothing
Glory be, bloodline buried
I am no one, I am nothing
Forgive me my father, for I am a sinner
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Forgive me my father, for I am a sinner
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Glory be, bloodline buried
I am no one, I am nothing
Glory be, bloodline buried
I am no one, I am nothing
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Still & True lyrics - Defeater
Been thinking about our better days
The nights we let slip away
The dull ache when the longing's gone
Burn my lungs and forget your name
Replace it with a softer pain
The siren song ringing on and on and
Keep me like a note tune something borrowed and blue
Bury me sound asleep and keep me closer to you
Keep me like a note tune
I'm still and true
Been thinking about our better days
The nights we let slip away
The siren song ringing on and on and
Keep me like a note tune something borrowed and blue
Bury me sound asleep and keep me closer to you
Keep me like a note tune
I'm still and true
Woah, woah, woah, woah, woah, woah, woah
Keep me like a note tune something borrowed and blue
Bury me sound asleep and keep me closer to you
Keep me like a note tune
I'm still and true
Woah, I'm still and true
Woah, I'm still and true
Woah, I'm still and true
Woah, I'm still and true
The nights we let slip away
The dull ache when the longing's gone
Burn my lungs and forget your name
Replace it with a softer pain
The siren song ringing on and on and
Keep me like a note tune something borrowed and blue
Bury me sound asleep and keep me closer to you
Keep me like a note tune
I'm still and true
Been thinking about our better days
The nights we let slip away
The siren song ringing on and on and
Keep me like a note tune something borrowed and blue
Bury me sound asleep and keep me closer to you
Keep me like a note tune
I'm still and true
Woah, woah, woah, woah, woah, woah, woah
Keep me like a note tune something borrowed and blue
Bury me sound asleep and keep me closer to you
Keep me like a note tune
I'm still and true
Woah, I'm still and true
Woah, I'm still and true
Woah, I'm still and true
Woah, I'm still and true
Let Me Down lyrics - Defeater
Sleepwalking skeleton wasting away
An apparition losing track of his own feet
Catch my reflection and I don't recognize the face that I see
Barely holding on like the trees to the dead and dying leaves
So let me down
Let me down
Let me down
Let me down
I feel my lungs drink the ocean drowning me
I hung myself with all the secrets that I keep
Lie through my teeth so no one knows the shape I'm in
I hide my hands so no one sees her always shaking
So let me down
Let me down
Let me down
Let me down
Lie through my teeth so no one knows the shape I'm in
I hide my hands so no one sees her always shaking
Let me down
Let me down
Let me down
Let me down
An apparition losing track of his own feet
Catch my reflection and I don't recognize the face that I see
Barely holding on like the trees to the dead and dying leaves
So let me down
Let me down
Let me down
Let me down
I feel my lungs drink the ocean drowning me
I hung myself with all the secrets that I keep
Lie through my teeth so no one knows the shape I'm in
I hide my hands so no one sees her always shaking
So let me down
Let me down
Let me down
Let me down
Lie through my teeth so no one knows the shape I'm in
I hide my hands so no one sees her always shaking
Let me down
Let me down
Let me down
Let me down
Bastards lyrics - Defeater
I hope this finds you well
A father lost and mother dear
The family that's kept me here
Heartless and cold, and I've learned it well
How to loose everything
How to push you away
How to lie when I say
"I never raised a hand to the ones I love."
Now look at how
You beg and pray
For your god and his grace
To keep you safe
To save you from me
My broken spirit and back
My calloused, shaking hands
The ache I carry in me
My grief and skeletons
The weight you carried inside
A weight that held my bloodline
Black out the sunlight
I count these burdens as mine
And still all you see is that bastard in me
Believing in hell
A father lost and mother dear
The family that I squandered here
Heartless and cold, and I forgot it all
How to loose everything
How to push you away
How to lie when I say
"I never raised a hand to the ones I love."
But I remember how
You begged and prayed
For your god and his grace
To keep you safe
To save you from me
My broken spirit and back
My calloused, shaking hands
The ache I carry in me
My grief and skeletons
The weight you carried inside
A weight that held my bloodline
Black out the sunlight
I count these burdens as mine
And still all I see is that bastard in me
A father lost and mother dear
The family that's kept me here
Heartless and cold, and I've learned it well
How to loose everything
How to push you away
How to lie when I say
"I never raised a hand to the ones I love."
Now look at how
You beg and pray
For your god and his grace
To keep you safe
To save you from me
My broken spirit and back
My calloused, shaking hands
The ache I carry in me
My grief and skeletons
The weight you carried inside
A weight that held my bloodline
Black out the sunlight
I count these burdens as mine
And still all you see is that bastard in me
Believing in hell
A father lost and mother dear
The family that I squandered here
Heartless and cold, and I forgot it all
How to loose everything
How to push you away
How to lie when I say
"I never raised a hand to the ones I love."
But I remember how
You begged and prayed
For your god and his grace
To keep you safe
To save you from me
My broken spirit and back
My calloused, shaking hands
The ache I carry in me
My grief and skeletons
The weight you carried inside
A weight that held my bloodline
Black out the sunlight
I count these burdens as mine
And still all I see is that bastard in me
No Shame lyrics - Defeater
Another day when the sun ain't shining
Another night with the bottle I drown in
Still hoping, still waiting, still breathing by a thread, still holding on [x2]
To my demons
To every dying wish I've had of us leaving
This ghost town still draggins us down
To pull you out of this hell you've been living in with the needle
Every dying wish I've had that you would clean up
Your lips, your let downs pulling me underground
With every tired lie you tell just to fill your heart.
You thin your veins with the dirt, with the hurt, with the memories of the pain
Still hoping, still waiting, still breathing by a thread, still holding on
And I lost my faith in your god, in your word, in every promise that you break
Still hoping, still waiting, still breathing by a thread, still holding on
So I walk the same way home each night to find that back alley pusher and take his life
And I ain't ashamed for what I've done
I'll take an eye for an eye until every junkie is blind
The river bed hold the blood and the knife
And I ain't ashamed for what I've done
I took his eye as a prize
The man who laid with my wife
Lays at the bottom of that river where the sun never shines
Another day when the sun ain't shining
Another night with the bottle I drown in
Still hoping, still waiting, still breathing by a thread, still holding on
Another night with the bottle I drown in
Still hoping, still waiting, still breathing by a thread, still holding on [x2]
To my demons
To every dying wish I've had of us leaving
This ghost town still draggins us down
To pull you out of this hell you've been living in with the needle
Every dying wish I've had that you would clean up
Your lips, your let downs pulling me underground
With every tired lie you tell just to fill your heart.
You thin your veins with the dirt, with the hurt, with the memories of the pain
Still hoping, still waiting, still breathing by a thread, still holding on
And I lost my faith in your god, in your word, in every promise that you break
Still hoping, still waiting, still breathing by a thread, still holding on
So I walk the same way home each night to find that back alley pusher and take his life
And I ain't ashamed for what I've done
I'll take an eye for an eye until every junkie is blind
The river bed hold the blood and the knife
And I ain't ashamed for what I've done
I took his eye as a prize
The man who laid with my wife
Lays at the bottom of that river where the sun never shines
Another day when the sun ain't shining
Another night with the bottle I drown in
Still hoping, still waiting, still breathing by a thread, still holding on
Hopeless Again lyrics - Defeater
Dear old friend
I'm feeling hopeless again
I'm giving in to my vices bottle in hand
Dear old friend
I think I'm slipping again
At the end of my rope with this pain in my head
I could use your sage old advice
Some word to calm me down
I ain't been sleeping much nights
With my girl sleeping all over town
Short list of my enemies
Since days I spent in the trench
But he ain't no man, he's a cheat
A coward staring down death
Dear old friend
In this letter I'll never send
I confess I'd kill them both where they stand
Dear old friend
You only get what you give
At the end of our love this pain is begging [?] my head
I could use your sage old advice
Some word to calm me down
I ain't been sleeping much nights
With my girl sleeping all over town
Short list of my enemies
Since days I spent in the trench
But he ain't no man, he's a cheat
A coward staring down death
My old friend, my old friend, my old friend, my old friend
I'm feeling hopeless again
On the front lines
I watched as good men died
I left a piece of me in foreign country side
And in my own home, I'm a stranger now
I was a husband once
Lies built on losing ground [x2]
My old friend, my old friend, my old friend, my old friend
I'm feeling hopeless again [x2]
I'm feeling hopeless again
I'm giving in to my vices bottle in hand
Dear old friend
I think I'm slipping again
At the end of my rope with this pain in my head
I could use your sage old advice
Some word to calm me down
I ain't been sleeping much nights
With my girl sleeping all over town
Short list of my enemies
Since days I spent in the trench
But he ain't no man, he's a cheat
A coward staring down death
Dear old friend
In this letter I'll never send
I confess I'd kill them both where they stand
Dear old friend
You only get what you give
At the end of our love this pain is begging [?] my head
I could use your sage old advice
Some word to calm me down
I ain't been sleeping much nights
With my girl sleeping all over town
Short list of my enemies
Since days I spent in the trench
But he ain't no man, he's a cheat
A coward staring down death
My old friend, my old friend, my old friend, my old friend
I'm feeling hopeless again
On the front lines
I watched as good men died
I left a piece of me in foreign country side
And in my own home, I'm a stranger now
I was a husband once
Lies built on losing ground [x2]
My old friend, my old friend, my old friend, my old friend
I'm feeling hopeless again [x2]
Blood In My Veins lyrics - Defeater
Can you hear those birds sing?
Means we're closer to shore
Means we're closer to home
Further from love and war
Further from what made sense
What we were born to do
What kept the blood in our veins
Keep my veins thin with booze
Kept my hand on my gun
And my gun by my side
Kept the moon in my thoughts
With the sun in my eyes
Kept my head hanging long
Kept my gun by my side
My brother's name in my head
And the tears from my eyes
Kept the blood in my veins
Kept the blood in my veins
Brother's name in my head
Kept the blood in my veins
I've been praying for death
For me and my friends
So we'd never wake up
To our lovers again
Because every lover had lied
When they said we'd be fine
When they said in good faith
They would sleep alone every night
Hope to come home in one piece with our boys by our side
Now we're ragged and the torn life the flags that we fly
Like the ones we lay down
On a coffin so clean
See those eyes staring back where the boys used to be
The boys we used to be
Kept the blood in my veins
(I re-read the postcards you sent, wish the truth was a lie)
Kept the blood in my veins
(The waves on the hull, throw your words off the side)
Brother's name in my head
(The slip takes the deed, dying back home)
And the blood in my veins
(I want to sing to the depths, with the letters you wrote)
Kept the blood in my veins
Kept the blood in my veins
Brother's name in my head
And the blood in my veins
Kept the blood in my veins
Means we're closer to shore
Means we're closer to home
Further from love and war
Further from what made sense
What we were born to do
What kept the blood in our veins
Keep my veins thin with booze
Kept my hand on my gun
And my gun by my side
Kept the moon in my thoughts
With the sun in my eyes
Kept my head hanging long
Kept my gun by my side
My brother's name in my head
And the tears from my eyes
Kept the blood in my veins
Kept the blood in my veins
Brother's name in my head
Kept the blood in my veins
I've been praying for death
For me and my friends
So we'd never wake up
To our lovers again
Because every lover had lied
When they said we'd be fine
When they said in good faith
They would sleep alone every night
Hope to come home in one piece with our boys by our side
Now we're ragged and the torn life the flags that we fly
Like the ones we lay down
On a coffin so clean
See those eyes staring back where the boys used to be
The boys we used to be
Kept the blood in my veins
(I re-read the postcards you sent, wish the truth was a lie)
Kept the blood in my veins
(The waves on the hull, throw your words off the side)
Brother's name in my head
(The slip takes the deed, dying back home)
And the blood in my veins
(I want to sing to the depths, with the letters you wrote)
Kept the blood in my veins
Kept the blood in my veins
Brother's name in my head
And the blood in my veins
Kept the blood in my veins
No Relief lyrics - Defeater
Waking up safe and sound
The words could hardly leave my mouth
"How did I make it out alive?"
I love the same sleep every night
"How did I make it out alive?"
I got your letter today
And when I heard my name
My stomach sand to the floor
I can't take anymore
I'm digging my own grave
And it read "Dear John"
I knew this day would come
I'm drinking every drip until nothing will stop
Until you pull that rig from your arm
A wise man once told me
There will be no relief
We will never be free
Of the horrible things
And the pain that we've seen
And that same man was told
"No matter where we may roam
You forget what you know of
That life you once lived
Because your home ain't never home"
I got your letter today
And when I heard my name
My stomach sand to the floor
I can't take anymore
I'm digging my own grave
And it read "Dear John"
I'm drinking every drip until the ache will stop
And it read "Dear John"
The words could hardly leave my mouth
"How did I make it out alive?"
I love the same sleep every night
"How did I make it out alive?"
I got your letter today
And when I heard my name
My stomach sand to the floor
I can't take anymore
I'm digging my own grave
And it read "Dear John"
I knew this day would come
I'm drinking every drip until nothing will stop
Until you pull that rig from your arm
A wise man once told me
There will be no relief
We will never be free
Of the horrible things
And the pain that we've seen
And that same man was told
"No matter where we may roam
You forget what you know of
That life you once lived
Because your home ain't never home"
I got your letter today
And when I heard my name
My stomach sand to the floor
I can't take anymore
I'm digging my own grave
And it read "Dear John"
I'm drinking every drip until the ache will stop
And it read "Dear John"
No Faith lyrics - Defeater
It can be heard
In every man, every bullet, every shell
In every word, ink and pen
Every family torn, every post marked stamp wishing them well
I'm a man of no faith
But I'm familiar with hell
It can be seen
On every kid scared to death
The wear and the pain on their face
We march on into snow, into rain
Our friends and our holes and our early graves
I'm a man of no faith
But I'm familiar with hell
In every man, every bullet, every shell
In every word, ink and pen
Every family torn, every post marked stamp wishing them well
I'm a man of no faith
But I'm familiar with hell
It can be seen
On every kid scared to death
The wear and the pain on their face
We march on into snow, into rain
Our friends and our holes and our early graves
I'm a man of no faith
But I'm familiar with hell
Dead Set lyrics - Defeater
I've got this hope in my chest
I'll see one more sunrise
I've got my brother's good luck
Around my neck every night
I've got this song in my head
It's got me thinking of him
My hear is heavy with guilt
It's got my blood running thin
We hold fast, dead set
Hold fast, dead set
The only friends I count as mine
We hold fast, dead set
Hold fast, dead set
Are those who'd die to save your life
I've got this burning in my gut
I've got these words that I write
So if I don't make it home
They'll know they were always on my mind [x4]
We hold fast, dead set
Hold fast, dead set
The only friends I count as mine
We hold fast, dead set
Hold fast, dead set
Are those who'd die to save your life
We hold fast, dead set
Hold fast, dead set
I'll see one more sunrise
I've got my brother's good luck
Around my neck every night
I've got this song in my head
It's got me thinking of him
My hear is heavy with guilt
It's got my blood running thin
We hold fast, dead set
Hold fast, dead set
The only friends I count as mine
We hold fast, dead set
Hold fast, dead set
Are those who'd die to save your life
I've got this burning in my gut
I've got these words that I write
So if I don't make it home
They'll know they were always on my mind [x4]
We hold fast, dead set
Hold fast, dead set
The only friends I count as mine
We hold fast, dead set
Hold fast, dead set
Are those who'd die to save your life
We hold fast, dead set
Hold fast, dead set
No Savior lyrics - Defeater
I quit believing in heaven
I found no savior in nothing
I gave away my faith
When I gave my brother a coffin
He was the air in my lungs
He was the blood in my veins
The reason I joined up
The man that I'll never be
A cigarette and a drink
To burn away my night
And keep the ache in my chest
And his candle burning bright
These words they fall on deaf ears
There is only guilt, death and grief
Your god forgot about us
He's just a thief and a cheat
A cigarette and a drink
To burn away my night
And keep the ache in my chest
And his candle burning bright
He was the air in my lungs
(He was the air in my lungs)
The man that I will never be
He was the air in my lungs
He was the blood in my veins
I quit believing in heaven
I found no savior in nothing
I gave away my faith
When I gave my brother a coffin [x2]
Let me be damned [x4]
I found no savior in nothing
I gave away my faith
When I gave my brother a coffin
He was the air in my lungs
He was the blood in my veins
The reason I joined up
The man that I'll never be
A cigarette and a drink
To burn away my night
And keep the ache in my chest
And his candle burning bright
These words they fall on deaf ears
There is only guilt, death and grief
Your god forgot about us
He's just a thief and a cheat
A cigarette and a drink
To burn away my night
And keep the ache in my chest
And his candle burning bright
He was the air in my lungs
(He was the air in my lungs)
The man that I will never be
He was the air in my lungs
He was the blood in my veins
I quit believing in heaven
I found no savior in nothing
I gave away my faith
When I gave my brother a coffin [x2]
Let me be damned [x4]
Rabbit Foot lyrics - Defeater
Dear hope I lost you,
Found solace in a bottle
Now I'm my mother's only son
Brother of mine
I woke up with the sunrise
With an ache in my chest
Brother of mine
Now you sleep at the bottom
Of the blue pacific
Brother of mine
I woke up with the bottle
And an ache in my chest
Brother of mine
Now you sleep in the iron
Bottom, blue pacific
I find no comfort
I find no solace
I've got no use for these
I find no closure
I find no peace
Just these scarred up memories
I've got your letters
I've got your good luck
In your rabbit foot I keep
Around my throat
To keep me from dying
You've always been protecting me
You've always been protecting me
You've always been protecting me
Dear hope I lost you,
Found solace in a bottle
Now I'm my mother's only son
Brother of mine
I woke up with the sunrise
With an ache in my chest
Brother of mine
Now you sleep at the bottom
Of the blue pacific
Brother of mine
I woke up with the bottle
And an ache in my chest
Brother of mine
Now you sleep in the iron
Bottom, blue pacific
Found solace in a bottle
Now I'm my mother's only son
Brother of mine
I woke up with the sunrise
With an ache in my chest
Brother of mine
Now you sleep at the bottom
Of the blue pacific
Brother of mine
I woke up with the bottle
And an ache in my chest
Brother of mine
Now you sleep in the iron
Bottom, blue pacific
I find no comfort
I find no solace
I've got no use for these
I find no closure
I find no peace
Just these scarred up memories
I've got your letters
I've got your good luck
In your rabbit foot I keep
Around my throat
To keep me from dying
You've always been protecting me
You've always been protecting me
You've always been protecting me
Dear hope I lost you,
Found solace in a bottle
Now I'm my mother's only son
Brother of mine
I woke up with the sunrise
With an ache in my chest
Brother of mine
Now you sleep at the bottom
Of the blue pacific
Brother of mine
I woke up with the bottle
And an ache in my chest
Brother of mine
Now you sleep in the iron
Bottom, blue pacific
Bled Out lyrics - Defeater
I feel the distance in your letters sent
I left my family for the trenches
You've got me worried about leaving
You've got your needle, I've got my demons
You've got me homesick, I feel like slipping
I feel the cold hand of death is creeping
He took my brother to the ocean floor
I beg but death don't come, that fucking coward
I'd give me life for his, what could I have done differently?
Bled out and failed him, he never would have done that to me
Let me keep sinking
Let me keep drowning
I am no one
I am nothing
I feel the distance in your letters sent
(I feel the distance)
I left my family for the trenches
(I am desperate)
You've got me worried about leaving
(Got me homesick)
You've got your needle, I've got my demons
(I am hopeless)
And all I see is the bastard in me [x18]
I left my family for the trenches
You've got me worried about leaving
You've got your needle, I've got my demons
You've got me homesick, I feel like slipping
I feel the cold hand of death is creeping
He took my brother to the ocean floor
I beg but death don't come, that fucking coward
I'd give me life for his, what could I have done differently?
Bled out and failed him, he never would have done that to me
Let me keep sinking
Let me keep drowning
I am no one
I am nothing
I feel the distance in your letters sent
(I feel the distance)
I left my family for the trenches
(I am desperate)
You've got me worried about leaving
(Got me homesick)
You've got your needle, I've got my demons
(I am hopeless)
And all I see is the bastard in me [x18]
Warm Blood Rush lyrics - Defeater
That little kid wronged him for the last time. Took away his Father and ran away like a coward. "Why don't you just own up to what you did? Instead of running away like a little yellow-belly? Just afraid of being hit, god damn him..." A little blood on someone's hands never hurt no one. "Dear God, what have you done?" Those words ring loud in the back of your head. That bottle lies in a thick, blood red. "I ain't no forgiver, forgetter." Our mother waits in vain for a God that never loved us. As much as she prayed, he never showed up. "Dear God, where have you gone?" Your brother is gone in the blink of an eye. That January night, our father lays cold. "Where are you going to go? You're only seventeen years old. I ain't no forgiver, forgetter." Those cold steel tracks beneath your feet, those same rail ties where you dodged those trains. When we were just two kids, it still feels the same; that warm blood rush when the train comes. "I ain't no forgiver, forgetter. I will find you, and put that vice to your head. Again, and again, and again."
Dear Father lyrics - Defeater
He put their father into the ground. Watching his mother cry over the man that provided for the three of them cut into him. Made him into the working man he was. Bury him in the cold wet ground. Familiar faces would have made him proud. The military and the working man, the history of the life he lived. "Can you feel that soil covering your coffin?" So what are you going to do? Be the hero that your father was, be the man he made you to be? You are your father's son, dear father. The war-torn stories that he told you, you've got a hell of a lot to live up to. An airborne man with a scar and wound, "Never make a promise that you can't prove." You are your father's son, dear father. "Where are you? You coward."
Waves Crash, Clouds Roll lyrics - Defeater
Before work he would just sit on that dock and watch the ocean. Waiting for his little brother to come home so he could put a couple bullets in him, put him in the ground with the father he'd wronged. His hands hurt every day after towing those lines in- they cracked when the winters came. Every night he'd come home to his mother passed out because of the junk she put in her arm. He'd pick her up and lay her in bed, kiss her forehead and close the door. He hated seeing her like that. He knew the only reason she started on that stuff in the first place is because she couldn't deal with how his father drank. But that ain't no reason to hurt yourself. As the waves crash, the clouds roll. Sit on the dock waiting for the sun. Wait for the coward but he never comes. Pray for revenge on him. Steam rises as the boats come in, one by one. You know she is gone and there's no saving her. Her cheating, her weak will, the addiction, that needle. When you come home to find her on the floor, you're reminded of those sleepless nights that will haunt you for the rest of your life. Blue collar shipyard, any way to keep her alive. Sun up to sun down, blistered hands and a parched mouth.
Empty Glass lyrics - Defeater
Him and the boys at work went out afterwards to this place called the Copper Coin. The old wood and brick walls made it feel like home. He found himself down at the Coin more that he would have liked. Staying later and later with each visit, even after the boys would go home to their girls. That's all he wanted, a pretty girl to come home to. A familiar face that wouldn't leave. And one night she was just sitting there, alone and unaware. He had never seen a prettier thing in his life. That was that, he had made up his mind. After a few drinks they walked home, and that's the way it was for years. The way she looked at you, tears streaming down her face. You felt the brush of her dress as she walked away. And that's all it took, sat down to buy her a drink. An empty or a half full glass, it all goes down the same. And that's the way that it's been, years later she took your name. Hopeful and now unafraid. Your gut sinks each time you see her. Another night at the Copper Coin. Tell me about the old days. Another night at the Copper Coin. Put the sun into the sea. Because there ain't nothing like your smile, your legs and those eyes. And I will beg and steal and borrow to keep you safe for your whole life.
No Kind Of Home lyrics - Defeater
One night, they fought harder than they ever had. They had always settled things with a 'sorry' and a kiss. But not that night. He had started going at the bottle much more than he used to. He'd go out to the Copper Coin after taking care of his mother and her addiction. He hated her for never backing him up when that bookie would talk to her. He thought she humored him. And after that fight, he did the same thing. Went out to the bar and drank himself into a stupor. "Where were you every night that I woke up alone?" Cold sweat keeps you up. "This ain't no kind of home." "Come pick me up." "Damn those boys at the bar, damn the way that you drink." Cold sweat, sleepless nights, when your hands start to shake. "Damn that pier where you sit, damn your vengeance for him. There's no bringing him back, your father is buried and dead. But you can't let go of that hero's death. And you've been left with debt. You couldn't fight for your country and your mother is an addict. "How dare you?" "This ain't no kind of home." "Damn that man that you humour, he only wants one thing from you. Damn those looks that you give him. Parlour tricks and I'm played for a fool."
White Knuckles lyrics - Defeater
The bookie his dad dealt with when he'd go to the tracks always gave him the eye when they would see each other there. He wanted to knock his jaw right off his face, tell him his father's debt ain't got nothing to do with him, and "if you'd like we could settle it with our fists." That bookie never did a damned thing about it. But that night was different, that bookie was there and he gave him what for. Told him, "You ain't never to look at my wife like that again." He landed one good punch, but that man's lackeys took him to the ground faster than he could hit, and he was out. He woke up in the street and walked home, trying to put together the pieces of the night before. The shame he felt for all the drinking he had been doing and the way he walked out ran so deep. He knew no husband should act the way he did. He made it to the doorstep much quicker than he thought he would, the door was already open and that's when he saw her. The love of his life, passed in his own home because he wasn't there to protect her. Because he was out drinking all night. Because that goddamned bookie took her life as a settlement. He put his fist through every wall of that house. Every light smashed and chair overturned. He sat there next to her for hours and couldn't cry, just held her hand and pulled her ring out of the blood. You're going to find him, and make him pay. Stumble out to the bar. "Take one more look at her, and it will be the end of your days. You low-life bookie, you don't scare me. I ain't settling no debt, I ain't saving no face. One more drink then I'm gone and then I'll drag you out of this place." Put it down for the courage, your fists clench with the blood rush. White knuckles when the hit lands, cold concrete and blurred vision. Stumble home from the bar. Stuttered steps home to your front door. On the tip of your tongue, your remorse. Shamed by the loss and defeat. Shamed by your let down to her. The same walk as that first night. Now alone you know that this ain't right. Better days and the promise you made, ain't no man supposed to walk out that way. Her ring lies in the thick red, your tears swell, and the room spins. "Dear God, what have I done?" You left her, and he took her, he laid with her. You bastard's son. With the blackout and the bloodstains, your teeth clench, then the pain comes.
Cemetary Walls lyrics - Defeater
After she was in the ground, he didn't know what to do. He still towed those lines at work, he still took care of his mother, but nothing was the same. He had lost everything. So he did what they always used to, go sit at their booth at the Copper Coin. Now it was just him, alone. Now he would just get blind drunk, hop the gates to the cemetery and just sit and talk to her. Climb those cemetery walls again; leave these flowers at your headstone. Climb those cemetery walls again, every night; you can't stand the sight of yourself. "Now that you're gone, what am I to do? But get lost in this bottle thinking of you." You drink until you're sick. "I trace the grooves in your stone." Plot where you'll bury him, the man that left you alone. You drink until you're sick, and feel the dew in the grass. As the sun's coming up, watch a funeral pass. You think to yourself, "That should have been me." Two in the family plot, when you wish it were three."
Quiet The Longing lyrics - Defeater
He got her the nicest headstone he could afford- anything for his girl. He would tell her about mother, about how his hands shook without her. How if he don't drink they would shake even worse. She would have never wanted to see him this way, and he felt ashamed each time he brought it up. One day, he just stopped going. He couldn't stand himself any longer. You sit, and you stir. You grieve and you grieve. The same chair as your old man, your mother's worse than you think. Sunken eyes and a withering frame, the needle quiets the longing. That poison it fills her veins. So quiet when the pain comes. Your mother's rosary ain't bringing father home. Blood rushes with cigarette burns. There ain't no God coming to save her. So quiet as the clouds roll. Your mother's rosary wrapped on the bed post. Blood rushes with cigarette burns. Sit on that dock every night until your head hurts. You sit, and you stir. You grieve and you grieve. The longer you sit at the ocean you lose more time than you think. Your blood runs cold, wind biting under your coat. Pull it tight to your chest. Your mother is praying for death much more than you know. "You coward, this is your fault. Our family has lost everything." Look down at your hands and your lit cigarette. Put it to your lips and breathe it in. Everything starts to fade and your body is numb. And when you wake in the morning you're in the house all alone.
At Peace lyrics - Defeater
He just sat at home with the bottle. His mother had turned into a skeleton of herself, no longer even able to get out of the house to fill up her arms; he had to make the runs for her. He didn't mind anymore, he knew how she felt. Anything to take away the pain of losing someone. She would just sit with her rosary, rolling the beads in her tiny hands. Every time he left the house for his mother, or for another bottle, he would stand on that dock and watch the ocean like he used to. Scream out to no one for the coward to come home so he could make him pay. And every night he would start to fade with every hour that passed. He would smoke his last cigarette and find himself in the house in the morning not knowing how he got home. And one morning he woke to his mother and her rosary beads no longer hanging on the bedpost. You've got to find her. Your mother ain't fit to be alone. Her rosary beads are gone, there's only one place she'd be. The sun is nearly up, put your jacket back on and walk down the street. Feel the wind start to shift, cold and biting. Just like everything that's changed. When you do find her, take the only family that you've got back to home. Head down, walk through the crowds and the families downtown. You jealous bitter old man, it's just yourself you can't stand. The man that took away your wife, coward that left you behind, you would kill them both if you could. Head down, cigarette in hand. Concrete, cold brick and sand to the place where she prays, where she suffers her days. Sleepless nights with the dirt when the addiction hurts. Up to that old white oak door church. And that's where you find her in that last pew. You touch her cold hand, your mother is gone. In front of her God, needle in her arm. The family plot will be filled. The perfect ending to a tragedy. Put her in the cold wet ground. Finally at peace with her husband now. And you've lost all will. Hours strain, but months pass alone with your gun. Blue-collar shipyard, your days have gone. Lost it all for the promise of a normal life. All taken from you when you lost your wife. So you sit in that chair, waiting for death, barrel to your head.
White Oak Doors lyrics - Defeater
Lost in your own head, but then a knock at the door. Put down that drink, your steps creaking the floor. Go and get the gun, distract yourself from death. Back against the door, your hands are starting to sweat. Slowly cock the gun, slowly move to the side, slowly turn the handle, slowly open it wide. You catch a glimpse of his face. Your heart sinks in your chest; your hands start to shake because you know that it's him. Just the coward and you standing silent, dead air. So you pull him inside into your father's chair. "Your addict mother is dead, all thanks to you. Her addiction got worse after you left you damn fool. What you did to our father, I promised you'd pay up. I'm going to take your life, but it don't feel like enough." Cold steel to his head, walk him to his death. Walk him down past the white oak doors. Walk him out past the boardwalk and your old shipyard. Your pistol in his side, make him pay. On the outskirts of town, pass the old quarry now. Walk him down to those cold steel tracks. You stumble drunk with the gun in his back. "Now get down on your knees on the tracks where you shamed me. But this time, the dodge ain't going to end so pretty. Either a bullet or that train steaming just ahead is going to end your days. You coward little kid." You sit and you stir, while he waits for his death. You'll never forgive him, and you never did forget. He'll never see the sun again. Make him pay off his debt. Stand on those tracks, cold steel under your feet, barrel to his temple. "Your addict mother, you will soon re-meet," you whisper in his ear, feel his whole body shake. In an instant he's got your arm, he's got your gun, you're held down by his weight. You feel the cold steel above and below. You feel your stomach tie in knots as the train whistle blows. You feel the warm of the blood where the barrel digs in. From your cheek to your mouth, you taste the sweat and the tin. You don't cry, you don't beg. You've been waiting for this. For the coward, or for death, just to see your wife again. That train is so close, so loud and so clear. Your hands stop shaking and it's all that you hear. Just like father. "You took him. If this is how it's going to be then I would rather die at the hands of my own family."
But Breathing lyrics - Defeater
Unwanted, but breathing. In the next room, sleeping. My mother, she's crying and my father's been drinking. In our run down apartment, where the roof is still leaking. He's cursing and cussing, it's just the whiskey talking. I've got lots of memories like this one. Of empty days and nights spent tired and lonesome. When I think back to all of it, it's all too much when you're just a little kid. My little brother, just a newborn baby. In the image of my mother, she says he's a blessing. But not to my father, oh how he hates him. "An undeserving mistake." He calls him a burden. I've got lots of memories like this one. Of picking fights and picking sides between them. When I think back to all of it, it's all too much when you're just a little kid. When I wake up in the morning it all feels like a bad dream, one that follows you and haunts you endlessly. Broken and beaten from the abuse and the cheating, the addiction, the lying and the promise of leaving. While my old man was a bastard, I admired and loved him. Us two kids were born in to a family, not a fortune.
Brothers lyrics - Defeater
You need to get out of this house. I'll walk you down to town. We'll go act our age, kick rocks, waste summer days. Penny candy at the general store, I'd buy us a pop if I had more. Keep walking inland all day, spitting and cursing each other's name. "Ain't this what brothers are supposed to do?" The blood between us, makes it all but true. So we roll on through past the quarries and sandpits too. Swim out among the rocks and cliffs, ignorant youth keeps us from death. Find our way out to the tracks. The sun, it beats down on our backs. Heaven help us if there's a train, dodge it like the beaches of Normandy. We saw that smoke rising over trees and I swore that train was out for me. So I held him tight and felt those tracks rumble underneath. He swore if I didn't let go he would knock me off my feet, and that's what he did.
I Don't Mind lyrics - Defeater
Let's talk about the old days
Let's talk about your friends
Let's talk about the summer
And how you wished it wouldn't end
Did I forget to tell you how pretty you looked in that dress?
And the first time that I saw you,
You cleaned the mess from my head
And I don't mind
If we take our time
No, I don't mind
Let's go walking on the boardwalk
Dip my feet into the sea
Let's find ourselves lost for hours
Until we find ourselves a drink
Let's talk that sun into setting
Just need the sound of your voice
I need that calming and the comfort
Something to drown out the noise
And I don't mind
If we take our time
'Cause I'm all yours
If you're all mine
Something I've been meaning to tell you
'Bout three years and a day
I'd very much like to get married
Maybe have kids and move away
'Cause there ain't nothing like your smile,
Your legs and those eyes
And I will beg and steal and borrow
To keep you safe your whole life
And I don't mind
If we take our time
'Cause I'm all yours
If you're all mine
Let's talk about your friends
Let's talk about the summer
And how you wished it wouldn't end
Did I forget to tell you how pretty you looked in that dress?
And the first time that I saw you,
You cleaned the mess from my head
And I don't mind
If we take our time
No, I don't mind
Let's go walking on the boardwalk
Dip my feet into the sea
Let's find ourselves lost for hours
Until we find ourselves a drink
Let's talk that sun into setting
Just need the sound of your voice
I need that calming and the comfort
Something to drown out the noise
And I don't mind
If we take our time
'Cause I'm all yours
If you're all mine
Something I've been meaning to tell you
'Bout three years and a day
I'd very much like to get married
Maybe have kids and move away
'Cause there ain't nothing like your smile,
Your legs and those eyes
And I will beg and steal and borrow
To keep you safe your whole life
And I don't mind
If we take our time
'Cause I'm all yours
If you're all mine
Headstone lyrics - Defeater
Hello my dear. It's so nice to see you here. How long has it been? Oh it feels like years, but I'm sure it's just been days. I've been walking around alone, drunk and missing you at home. You know I'll never feel the same, or ask another girl to take my name. I think I've been stopping by too much, I don't want you to get sick of me. On my way home from the Copper Coin, it's this or I jump into the sea. I will never forgive myself for not being there to protect you, I should have been at home instead out trying to forget you. Just one fight and I'm out the door. What kind of man am I? I swore I'd never leave your side. Hello my dear, it's so hard to see you here. How long has it been since we put you in the ground? It feels like days, but it's been years. "And please don't call me baby, it's just too hard to hear. Leave you flowers at your headstone and just sit and talk to you my dear."
The Red, White, And Blues lyrics - Defeater
That whiskey burns going down
Old man pour me another round
Cause it's my last night in town
And I ain't thinking of slowing down.
No, I am fixing to drown
Till I see the sun or I can't see
Cause I got the blues and the blues got me
I'm gonna make my momma proud
Her boy on the front lines
And just like my daddy done
I ain't afraid to die.
I ain't afraid to die.
I ain't no fortunate one
But I'm proud of what I've done.
Hardships, I've seen some
I ain't a coward I don't turn and run
I don't turn and run.
So I stumble home
Pack up my old memories
Pictures of ma
My daddy's flask she gave me
Keep it near your heart
She would always say
It's all he left
And that's where it'll stay.
And her leatherbound
Book of psalms and prayers
She would always read
With patience and care.
A short walk to the cemetery
To pay respects before I leave
1901 to 1943
I run my fingers through her name
And the effigy.
The sun is up
It's all I see
Cause I got the blues
And they still got me.
Yeah they still got me
I'm gonna make my momma proud
Her hopeful new recruit
And just like my daddy done
I'm gonna bleed red, white and blue
I'm gonna bleed red, white and blue
I'm gonna bleed red, white and blue
I'm gonna bleed red, white and blue
I'm gonna bleed red, white and blue
Old man pour me another round
Cause it's my last night in town
And I ain't thinking of slowing down.
No, I am fixing to drown
Till I see the sun or I can't see
Cause I got the blues and the blues got me
I'm gonna make my momma proud
Her boy on the front lines
And just like my daddy done
I ain't afraid to die.
I ain't afraid to die.
I ain't no fortunate one
But I'm proud of what I've done.
Hardships, I've seen some
I ain't a coward I don't turn and run
I don't turn and run.
So I stumble home
Pack up my old memories
Pictures of ma
My daddy's flask she gave me
Keep it near your heart
She would always say
It's all he left
And that's where it'll stay.
And her leatherbound
Book of psalms and prayers
She would always read
With patience and care.
A short walk to the cemetery
To pay respects before I leave
1901 to 1943
I run my fingers through her name
And the effigy.
The sun is up
It's all I see
Cause I got the blues
And they still got me.
Yeah they still got me
I'm gonna make my momma proud
Her hopeful new recruit
And just like my daddy done
I'm gonna bleed red, white and blue
I'm gonna bleed red, white and blue
I'm gonna bleed red, white and blue
I'm gonna bleed red, white and blue
I'm gonna bleed red, white and blue
The Bite And Sting lyrics - Defeater
I've spent days in this trench in the snow
Just my gun by my side.
It's cold and wet and you're all alone
Up keeping watch at night.
The bite and the sting
The bitter cold brings
Reminds you that you're still alive
The hope and the pride
That we all hold inside
Seems to break when another boy dies
The bite and the sting
The bitter cold brings
Makes you wish that you weren't still alive
The hope and the pride
We all hold inside
Seems to break
Seems to break.
We ain't seen no germans for days
We're just tired and sore
And it feels like I'm wasting away
So I drink from my flask to stay warm.
Every bomb miles away
Every faded engine cry
Still makes your heart start to race
Keeps you praying at night.
It's too quiet and too calm
For something not to be wrong
So we sit as brothers in arms.
So we wait and we shake
Hear the roar of the tanks
And the gunfire of the oncoming storm.
The ring in our ears
And the cold rush of fear
Overtakes us with the enemy in sight.
I stagger, but don't falter
I aim and pull the trigger
And we fight, we fight, we fight.
But it all happens too fast
The blur of the sweat in my eyes
For every man killed
Seems 2 of my friends fall to die
I'm down on my knees
Feel the pain in my gut
And the snow is covered in blood.
Crawl to my captains side
With his head on my knees
Says "see to it that my grave is kept clean"
Awake in a hospital bed
Just rows and rows and rows of dying kids.
And I know
That my whole
Infantry is dead.
Just my gun by my side.
It's cold and wet and you're all alone
Up keeping watch at night.
The bite and the sting
The bitter cold brings
Reminds you that you're still alive
The hope and the pride
That we all hold inside
Seems to break when another boy dies
The bite and the sting
The bitter cold brings
Makes you wish that you weren't still alive
The hope and the pride
We all hold inside
Seems to break
Seems to break.
We ain't seen no germans for days
We're just tired and sore
And it feels like I'm wasting away
So I drink from my flask to stay warm.
Every bomb miles away
Every faded engine cry
Still makes your heart start to race
Keeps you praying at night.
It's too quiet and too calm
For something not to be wrong
So we sit as brothers in arms.
So we wait and we shake
Hear the roar of the tanks
And the gunfire of the oncoming storm.
The ring in our ears
And the cold rush of fear
Overtakes us with the enemy in sight.
I stagger, but don't falter
I aim and pull the trigger
And we fight, we fight, we fight.
But it all happens too fast
The blur of the sweat in my eyes
For every man killed
Seems 2 of my friends fall to die
I'm down on my knees
Feel the pain in my gut
And the snow is covered in blood.
Crawl to my captains side
With his head on my knees
Says "see to it that my grave is kept clean"
Awake in a hospital bed
Just rows and rows and rows of dying kids.
And I know
That my whole
Infantry is dead.
A Wound And A Scar lyrics - Defeater
I stand next to an empty grave
Where my friends will lay
I'll put their bodies down
Into their resting place.
Got a purple heart
For a wound and scar
They just send letters home
That broke the families apart.
The paulbearers burden
As heavy as my hearts hurting.
All the pain and guilt
My head is pondering.
Why them and not me?
Why them and not me?
Why?
Did you ever hear that coffin sound?
Means another poor boy is in the ground.
Have you ever heard them church bells toll?
Means another poor boy is dead and gone.
Have you ever heard that coffin sound?
Means another poor boy is in the ground.
The preachers preach, only folded flags
And the mothers mourn, holding folded flags.
Just caskets and folded flags.
Just caskets and folded flags.
No hope, just folded flags.
No hope, just folded flags.
No hope
No hope
No hope
No hope
Where my friends will lay
I'll put their bodies down
Into their resting place.
Got a purple heart
For a wound and scar
They just send letters home
That broke the families apart.
The paulbearers burden
As heavy as my hearts hurting.
All the pain and guilt
My head is pondering.
Why them and not me?
Why them and not me?
Why?
Did you ever hear that coffin sound?
Means another poor boy is in the ground.
Have you ever heard them church bells toll?
Means another poor boy is dead and gone.
Have you ever heard that coffin sound?
Means another poor boy is in the ground.
The preachers preach, only folded flags
And the mothers mourn, holding folded flags.
Just caskets and folded flags.
Just caskets and folded flags.
No hope, just folded flags.
No hope, just folded flags.
No hope
No hope
No hope
No hope
Home Ain't Never Home lyrics - Defeater
I'm wandering these streets alone
They don't feel like home
This once hallowed ground
Feels like a ghost town now
I'm on the street corners everyday
At night I drink it away.
And this flask that saved my life
Might be the death of me.
And no man in this city
Will take a chance on me
The color of my skin
Is all they see.
I was a hero when I came home
Now no one seems to know
And that medal that I received
Means nothing to me
I keep reading my momma's prayers
I find nothing in there
That makes any sense to me.
Her god
Is no more
Than a thief.
Gonna pack up
Gonna leave town
On a train car
Headed north bound
I'm gonna leave
I'm gonna leave.
With my lost hope
I'm gonna get out
Carry burdens,
Carry my guilt
I'm gonna leave
Carry burdens
Burdens
Burdens
My burdens
I watched the good men fall and brave boys die
Hearing soldiers sob in the dead of night
Every poor young soul that dies in vain
Every soldier lost in this country's name
I carry guilt and my shame
No pride and no name
Just burdens
Burdens
My burdens
My burdens
My guilt and my shame
No pride and no name
Just burdens
They don't feel like home
This once hallowed ground
Feels like a ghost town now
I'm on the street corners everyday
At night I drink it away.
And this flask that saved my life
Might be the death of me.
And no man in this city
Will take a chance on me
The color of my skin
Is all they see.
I was a hero when I came home
Now no one seems to know
And that medal that I received
Means nothing to me
I keep reading my momma's prayers
I find nothing in there
That makes any sense to me.
Her god
Is no more
Than a thief.
Gonna pack up
Gonna leave town
On a train car
Headed north bound
I'm gonna leave
I'm gonna leave.
With my lost hope
I'm gonna get out
Carry burdens,
Carry my guilt
I'm gonna leave
Carry burdens
Burdens
Burdens
My burdens
I watched the good men fall and brave boys die
Hearing soldiers sob in the dead of night
Every poor young soul that dies in vain
Every soldier lost in this country's name
I carry guilt and my shame
No pride and no name
Just burdens
Burdens
My burdens
My burdens
My guilt and my shame
No pride and no name
Just burdens
Singin' New York Town lyrics - Defeater
My savior, this city,
My comfort, her pity
Or so I hoped.
My heartache, my hard luck,
My war time, my struggle
That no one knows.
In the alleys where I sleep
I beg and beg for the food I eat
All the pain and the hurt
In your gut where it burns
Every man here is just like me.
The wind blowing round the snow
Makes a man freeze straight to the bone
So I drink and drink and I try not to think
Of the people I lost at home
These six strings I'm playing
These songs I'm singing
Keep me alive.
These strangers
That curse me
The hero
They don't see
Just waiting to die
I ain't the man that I used to be
I feel the city as it's crushing me
I am losing ground on these empty streets
New York town has got the best of me
The southern ground where my mama sleeps
She found death and she found peace
There's an empty grave next to where she lay
That's where I'm supposed to be.
I beg and I plead
For her god to hear me
He's just a coward
Just a thief
I pray and I pray
For him to answer me
I hear nothing
I hear nothing
I beg and I plead
For her god to hear me
I hear nothing
Nothing
My comfort, her pity
Or so I hoped.
My heartache, my hard luck,
My war time, my struggle
That no one knows.
In the alleys where I sleep
I beg and beg for the food I eat
All the pain and the hurt
In your gut where it burns
Every man here is just like me.
The wind blowing round the snow
Makes a man freeze straight to the bone
So I drink and drink and I try not to think
Of the people I lost at home
These six strings I'm playing
These songs I'm singing
Keep me alive.
These strangers
That curse me
The hero
They don't see
Just waiting to die
I ain't the man that I used to be
I feel the city as it's crushing me
I am losing ground on these empty streets
New York town has got the best of me
The southern ground where my mama sleeps
She found death and she found peace
There's an empty grave next to where she lay
That's where I'm supposed to be.
I beg and I plead
For her god to hear me
He's just a coward
Just a thief
I pray and I pray
For him to answer me
I hear nothing
I hear nothing
I beg and I plead
For her god to hear me
I hear nothing
Nothing
Beggin' In The Slums lyrics - Defeater
I ain't been sleeping well these days
I lie awake listening to the trains
Wishing for one of them
To come take me away
Lost my way every place I've been
Tired of thinking of all the hurt I've seen
Wishing for death
To finally take me.
My days are all the same
On the corners I beg and plead
I blow my lungs out
For some strangers change
The nights are long and cold
Under bridges where you're all alone
Embers of the fire build
Like drifts of snow
I've been thrown out
I've been let down
Never felt a promise
Of this town
That it was supposed to be
When I left home
I am washed up
On my last breath
Just an old man
With nothing left.
It ain't the way it was supposed to be
When I came home.
My ups and my downs
Have burnt me out
These people watching me
The swan song that I sing
And in the crowd
I feel the eyes
That have been broken down
Just like mine.
I hope these words dig deep
I hope he's listening
He sees what I've become
Just a broken man begging in slums
I found my hope
Finally found my hope
In the poor lost souls eyes
That were burning just like mine.
I lie awake listening to the trains
Wishing for one of them
To come take me away
Lost my way every place I've been
Tired of thinking of all the hurt I've seen
Wishing for death
To finally take me.
My days are all the same
On the corners I beg and plead
I blow my lungs out
For some strangers change
The nights are long and cold
Under bridges where you're all alone
Embers of the fire build
Like drifts of snow
I've been thrown out
I've been let down
Never felt a promise
Of this town
That it was supposed to be
When I left home
I am washed up
On my last breath
Just an old man
With nothing left.
It ain't the way it was supposed to be
When I came home.
My ups and my downs
Have burnt me out
These people watching me
The swan song that I sing
And in the crowd
I feel the eyes
That have been broken down
Just like mine.
I hope these words dig deep
I hope he's listening
He sees what I've become
Just a broken man begging in slums
I found my hope
Finally found my hope
In the poor lost souls eyes
That were burning just like mine.
Blessed Burden lyrics - Defeater
March. 1945
Unwanted from his first breath.
A mother's blessing born,
A father's burden worn.
The bright shine of the sunrise
Along the tile floor to the open door.
With blood on the sheets she lay on the mattress.
Staring aimlessly.
Numb, dark and decayed
On the bathroom floor
Of their rundown apartment.
Scraping fingers on tile
Just to feel something.
Unwanted by a bastard father.
Unwanted,
But through the hazel eyes of his mother.
She's praying for god to save her.
"please save me.
Please save me"
But when she needs him most,
He doesn't answer.
Another rosary,
Another unanswered plea.
"please take us away, please let us be safe.
Let everyone that sees me forget my face."
But all she gets is the drunk
With his fists and that old devil look in his eye.
Him and jack,
That gambling debt,
That old devil look in his eye.
And without warning
He raises his hand to her
And without warning
He raises his hand to her and says,
"your god can't hear you,
Not down here."
Please save me
Please save me
"no one will save you because no one cares."
Another rosary,
Another unanswered plea.
"please take us away, please let us be safe.
Let everyone that sees me forget my face."
And with her newborn boy,
They would cry until the early morning light.
It was the first of many, many sleepless nights.
Unwanted from his first breath.
A mother's blessing born,
A father's burden worn.
The bright shine of the sunrise
Along the tile floor to the open door.
With blood on the sheets she lay on the mattress.
Staring aimlessly.
Numb, dark and decayed
On the bathroom floor
Of their rundown apartment.
Scraping fingers on tile
Just to feel something.
Unwanted by a bastard father.
Unwanted,
But through the hazel eyes of his mother.
She's praying for god to save her.
"please save me.
Please save me"
But when she needs him most,
He doesn't answer.
Another rosary,
Another unanswered plea.
"please take us away, please let us be safe.
Let everyone that sees me forget my face."
But all she gets is the drunk
With his fists and that old devil look in his eye.
Him and jack,
That gambling debt,
That old devil look in his eye.
And without warning
He raises his hand to her
And without warning
He raises his hand to her and says,
"your god can't hear you,
Not down here."
Please save me
Please save me
"no one will save you because no one cares."
Another rosary,
Another unanswered plea.
"please take us away, please let us be safe.
Let everyone that sees me forget my face."
And with her newborn boy,
They would cry until the early morning light.
It was the first of many, many sleepless nights.
Everything Went Quiet lyrics - Defeater
Roll on through to the other side of town.
Passed the quarry, the river beds,
Over bridges and bunker sheds.
Roll on through to the pits and the rail car yard.
"this is where you prove your worth."
A brother's dare, that devil's smirk.
"oh, this is the way it will always be."
A kid brother in the shadows of a cold heart's legacy.
"oh, this is where we see who runs first.
It's you and me and the train.
The steel tracks and the dirt.
Oh, you can never live up to me."
And so he stood trembling,
Waiting for smoke above the trees.
Roll on through. he could hear it rumbling,
He could feel it beneath his feet.
Roll on through.
"closer now, hold your ground.
Steadfast, ignore the sound."
Oh
Everything went quiet
Just before the rush took over his head.
With the pull and the push of the engine,
Think back with the coal and the steam.
The racing thoughts, the questions,
The adolescent rivalry.
And with a nod from the elder,
The younger's fear topples over.
Over rails and over timber.
"that's no dodge, you fucking coward."
And the train rolls on.
And the train rolls on
"yellow-belly go home."
And the train rolls on.
Passed the quarry, the river beds,
Over bridges and bunker sheds.
Roll on through to the pits and the rail car yard.
"this is where you prove your worth."
A brother's dare, that devil's smirk.
"oh, this is the way it will always be."
A kid brother in the shadows of a cold heart's legacy.
"oh, this is where we see who runs first.
It's you and me and the train.
The steel tracks and the dirt.
Oh, you can never live up to me."
And so he stood trembling,
Waiting for smoke above the trees.
Roll on through. he could hear it rumbling,
He could feel it beneath his feet.
Roll on through.
"closer now, hold your ground.
Steadfast, ignore the sound."
Oh
Everything went quiet
Just before the rush took over his head.
With the pull and the push of the engine,
Think back with the coal and the steam.
The racing thoughts, the questions,
The adolescent rivalry.
And with a nod from the elder,
The younger's fear topples over.
Over rails and over timber.
"that's no dodge, you fucking coward."
And the train rolls on.
And the train rolls on
"yellow-belly go home."
And the train rolls on.
Nameless Streets lyrics - Defeater
As a kid the summers seemed so long.
The dusk a never ending song.
Too much, too young.
He'd never hear it again.
A walk through the dismal streets,
The alleys where the junkies sleep.
Too much, too young.
"that will never be me."
Slow, hand in hand to the boardwalk's end.
His mother's words like the biting wind.
"please don't leave me."
He'll never hear them again.
"keep quiet, stay out of sight."
Her sunken eyes that used to burn so bright.
"please don't leave me."
Please don't leave me.
So he hid pressed against the wall,
Under stairs in the darkened hall.
The sound of heartbreak reminded him of home.
Shadows move slow across the floor,
A minute seemed like a day or more.
The end of heartache when she opened the door.
The sights, sounds,
Smell of burnt out shame, pride, spite, love.
They all come here to die.
He sobs, "please take me away.
Please mother bring us home safe
On nameless streets the way we came."
And suddenly she prayed for better days
And for redemption.
Sullenly she prayed to keep from harm's way and for conviction.
But there's no forgiveness here.
No hope beyond that pier.
No way to get out now,
Not for her in this dead end town.
And that drunk is waiting up,
Him and jack, the empty cup.
"where you been?
What you on?
Who'd you fuck?"
One more drink to toast "good luck".
She gets a stiff hand from the old man
Like the bourbon he's been drinking.
Black out.
And she gets a stiff hand from the old man
Like the bourbon he's been drinking.
Black out
The summers seemed so long.
The dusk a never ending song.
Too much, too young.
He'd never sleep again
Too much, too young.
"that will never be me."
The dusk a never ending song.
Too much, too young.
He'd never hear it again.
A walk through the dismal streets,
The alleys where the junkies sleep.
Too much, too young.
"that will never be me."
Slow, hand in hand to the boardwalk's end.
His mother's words like the biting wind.
"please don't leave me."
He'll never hear them again.
"keep quiet, stay out of sight."
Her sunken eyes that used to burn so bright.
"please don't leave me."
Please don't leave me.
So he hid pressed against the wall,
Under stairs in the darkened hall.
The sound of heartbreak reminded him of home.
Shadows move slow across the floor,
A minute seemed like a day or more.
The end of heartache when she opened the door.
The sights, sounds,
Smell of burnt out shame, pride, spite, love.
They all come here to die.
He sobs, "please take me away.
Please mother bring us home safe
On nameless streets the way we came."
And suddenly she prayed for better days
And for redemption.
Sullenly she prayed to keep from harm's way and for conviction.
But there's no forgiveness here.
No hope beyond that pier.
No way to get out now,
Not for her in this dead end town.
And that drunk is waiting up,
Him and jack, the empty cup.
"where you been?
What you on?
Who'd you fuck?"
One more drink to toast "good luck".
She gets a stiff hand from the old man
Like the bourbon he's been drinking.
Black out.
And she gets a stiff hand from the old man
Like the bourbon he's been drinking.
Black out
The summers seemed so long.
The dusk a never ending song.
Too much, too young.
He'd never sleep again
Too much, too young.
"that will never be me."
Forgiver Forgetter lyrics - Defeater
January, 1962
He awoke in a cold sweat
to those old sounds of heartbreak.
his brother at his side screaming
"this isn't your fight".
but that rush took over his head
and he came to his mother's side.
and he found himself alone with that devil rambling.
"oh, well the money's all gone
and she can't pay the rent with that needle in her arm."
he clenched his fists.
"what did she ever do to you,
but raise us by herself
when you were too drunk to come through?"
he took a swing.
"that's some nerve you got kid."
"yeah well they'll put that on your tombstone
as the last thing that you said.
I never wanted to kill a man,
like I want to kill you, man."
the years of pain boiled over,
trading blows across the counter.
and when that devil was down
he grabbed for his empty old friend jack.
he caught his eye as he took his last breath
and that vice went to his head again and again
and again and again and again and again
"dear god what have you done?" cried out his mother.
"that devil drunk was no father.
another name on a list
for unpaid bookies and gambling debts."
that spiteful stare of his brother.
"I ain't no forgiver forgetter.
I'll make you pay for this, when you least expect it."
he washed the blood from his hands,
kissed his mother and stepped into cold night air.
He awoke in a cold sweat
to those old sounds of heartbreak.
his brother at his side screaming
"this isn't your fight".
but that rush took over his head
and he came to his mother's side.
and he found himself alone with that devil rambling.
"oh, well the money's all gone
and she can't pay the rent with that needle in her arm."
he clenched his fists.
"what did she ever do to you,
but raise us by herself
when you were too drunk to come through?"
he took a swing.
"that's some nerve you got kid."
"yeah well they'll put that on your tombstone
as the last thing that you said.
I never wanted to kill a man,
like I want to kill you, man."
the years of pain boiled over,
trading blows across the counter.
and when that devil was down
he grabbed for his empty old friend jack.
he caught his eye as he took his last breath
and that vice went to his head again and again
and again and again and again and again
"dear god what have you done?" cried out his mother.
"that devil drunk was no father.
another name on a list
for unpaid bookies and gambling debts."
that spiteful stare of his brother.
"I ain't no forgiver forgetter.
I'll make you pay for this, when you least expect it."
he washed the blood from his hands,
kissed his mother and stepped into cold night air.
City By Dawn lyrics - Defeater
Rain fell hard
Chalk it up to a failure.
Push through the cold weather.
Racing heart,
Slow the beat,
Push through the defeat.
No one knows,
Just push through the deadbeats,
Junkies, liars and cutthroats.
The same walk, the same pier.
No one's going to remember him here.
"just walk until you reach those long steel tracks."
That old familiar sting, the memories of rivalry.
Years passed and it's still here.
The same dirt, same rails, same fear.
And all the years of giving in rushed through his head again.
With no loss to match his gain,
He rolled on to hop that train.
Rain fell hard.
Chalk the miles from his failure.
Trees sway with the weather.
Racing heart, skips a beat.
Every crossed town line is relief.
With no money and no name,
State lines, borders rivers are all the same.
The city by dawn, a stranger with no history comes.
"just rest your head where the sun sets.
Fade out at sun down.
Fade out at sun down.
Well fade out."
Chalk it up to a failure.
Push through the cold weather.
Racing heart,
Slow the beat,
Push through the defeat.
No one knows,
Just push through the deadbeats,
Junkies, liars and cutthroats.
The same walk, the same pier.
No one's going to remember him here.
"just walk until you reach those long steel tracks."
That old familiar sting, the memories of rivalry.
Years passed and it's still here.
The same dirt, same rails, same fear.
And all the years of giving in rushed through his head again.
With no loss to match his gain,
He rolled on to hop that train.
Rain fell hard.
Chalk the miles from his failure.
Trees sway with the weather.
Racing heart, skips a beat.
Every crossed town line is relief.
With no money and no name,
State lines, borders rivers are all the same.
The city by dawn, a stranger with no history comes.
"just rest your head where the sun sets.
Fade out at sun down.
Fade out at sun down.
Well fade out."
Prophet In Plain Clothes lyrics - Defeater
He walks the streets collar up to the snowfall.
Holes in pockets and knees.
Sleeps in bar rooms and horse stalls.
But you can't stay too long in one place.
"move along kid, we don't like your face."
Mother's hold children close out of fear.
Father's curse under breath as they sneer.
And he walks the streets, years pass by with the snowfall.
Time is wasted in drink,
Days begging and lost souls.
Holds no merit in vagrants in boxcars.
Down in hell you best know who your friends are.
"not so proud scrounging for your next meal.
No alibis sold when with devils you deal.
How does it feel
How does it feel
How does it feel
How does it feel to be all alone with no direction?
Home's never home,
It's just the place where you came from.
Home's never home,
It's just the place where you came from.
Home's never home,
It's just the place where you came from.
Home's never home,
Writ on walls of the church and the hostels.
"home is never home," said by martyrs and lost souls.
"home is never home," said the prophet in plain clothes
As he strummed his guitar. and he screamed, and he sang.
"we'll I've been tired
Cause' I don't sleep so well on trains
Well I got ups and downs
But days are all the same
I've been low
But it never gets me down
Well I've been thrown out
I've been let down
I've been chased
Well I've hardships
I've been stripped of pride and name
I've been low
But it never gets me down
And nights spent drinking
All the worry from my head
And days spent wandering
Wishing I was dead
If I could only muster
The words out from my mouth
I would sing
Oh I would sing
I'll take the next train out
Cause I've been hopin'
I've been praying theres some god
So when I die
I'm found and saved
And I'm not lost
Cause all he's done
All for me
Is take away the ones I love
And nights spent drinking
All the worry from my head
And days spent wandering
Wishing I was dead
If I could only muster
The words out from my mouth
I would sing
Oh I would sing
I'll take the next train out
I'm gonna take it"
Holes in pockets and knees.
Sleeps in bar rooms and horse stalls.
But you can't stay too long in one place.
"move along kid, we don't like your face."
Mother's hold children close out of fear.
Father's curse under breath as they sneer.
And he walks the streets, years pass by with the snowfall.
Time is wasted in drink,
Days begging and lost souls.
Holds no merit in vagrants in boxcars.
Down in hell you best know who your friends are.
"not so proud scrounging for your next meal.
No alibis sold when with devils you deal.
How does it feel
How does it feel
How does it feel
How does it feel to be all alone with no direction?
Home's never home,
It's just the place where you came from.
Home's never home,
It's just the place where you came from.
Home's never home,
It's just the place where you came from.
Home's never home,
Writ on walls of the church and the hostels.
"home is never home," said by martyrs and lost souls.
"home is never home," said the prophet in plain clothes
As he strummed his guitar. and he screamed, and he sang.
"we'll I've been tired
Cause' I don't sleep so well on trains
Well I got ups and downs
But days are all the same
I've been low
But it never gets me down
Well I've been thrown out
I've been let down
I've been chased
Well I've hardships
I've been stripped of pride and name
I've been low
But it never gets me down
And nights spent drinking
All the worry from my head
And days spent wandering
Wishing I was dead
If I could only muster
The words out from my mouth
I would sing
Oh I would sing
I'll take the next train out
Cause I've been hopin'
I've been praying theres some god
So when I die
I'm found and saved
And I'm not lost
Cause all he's done
All for me
Is take away the ones I love
And nights spent drinking
All the worry from my head
And days spent wandering
Wishing I was dead
If I could only muster
The words out from my mouth
I would sing
Oh I would sing
I'll take the next train out
I'm gonna take it"
Carrying Weight lyrics - Defeater
That soap box song
Stuck in his head.
Burdens lie in graves past by.
He carries his weight.
That anthem for the disenchanted
Rings loud in waves of grain.
Heavy hearted hymns
Heard in slums fade out on those country roads.
Hope burning in his lungs.
Days pass, weeks pass.
Sleeping under sky.
Days pass, weeks pass.
Days turn into nights.
Sleep sound, the sun's out.
Sleep long, sleep well.
Days pass, weeks pass.
Memories come flooding back,
He prays his mother's god
Has saved her soul.
That soap box song still in his head.
Miles lost to heat and rain.
He carries his weight.
That message for the misdirected
Rings true to this day.
Heavy hearted hymns sung in fields.
He stops along that country road
To listen as they sing.
"swing low, swing low chariot for me.
Swing low, swing low. pray my soul to keep."
"rest now, the sun's down. rest long, rest well."
"swing low, swing low."
Redemption lies in an old farm house,
"room and board for the strong hands we need.
All I can offer, roof over head.
Another day, another dollar.
All I can offer, roof over head.
Another day, another dollar.
Another day, another dollar."
Stuck in his head.
Burdens lie in graves past by.
He carries his weight.
That anthem for the disenchanted
Rings loud in waves of grain.
Heavy hearted hymns
Heard in slums fade out on those country roads.
Hope burning in his lungs.
Days pass, weeks pass.
Sleeping under sky.
Days pass, weeks pass.
Days turn into nights.
Sleep sound, the sun's out.
Sleep long, sleep well.
Days pass, weeks pass.
Memories come flooding back,
He prays his mother's god
Has saved her soul.
That soap box song still in his head.
Miles lost to heat and rain.
He carries his weight.
That message for the misdirected
Rings true to this day.
Heavy hearted hymns sung in fields.
He stops along that country road
To listen as they sing.
"swing low, swing low chariot for me.
Swing low, swing low. pray my soul to keep."
"rest now, the sun's down. rest long, rest well."
"swing low, swing low."
Redemption lies in an old farm house,
"room and board for the strong hands we need.
All I can offer, roof over head.
Another day, another dollar.
All I can offer, roof over head.
Another day, another dollar.
Another day, another dollar."
Moon Shine lyrics - Defeater
"If you're always running,
You ain't no kind of man.
Face up your fears kid,
Fight for what you take stock in.
Out here on rolling hills,
There ain't no alibis.
Only sweat and dirt,
Only that open sky.
F you take nothing more
Than these simple words,
With your head held high kid,
You will have your day.
You can leave hardened,
I won't think twice of it.
If you got a battle back home,
You got no reason to stay."
Out there on rolling hills,
He thought of days back home.
All the pain and hurt,
His mother praying alone.
Sleep never came for him,
No rest for wicked men.
In those starless skies,
The moon shined shame on him.
He found redemption in pale saints
That took him in.
His grey eyes,
Hopefulness,
That only youth can feel
Before life sours them.
"where you from, where you been?"
The boy would ask.
He could never answer,
It was the truth he lacked.
"I'm from nowhere kid, I've been to hell and back.
I'm a loner kid, I got no grace and no tact."
He had nothing more than those simple words.
He was a runner and a coward
Always losing his way.
Till no sleep for him.
"I ain't no wicked man."
There would be no night like this for him ever again.
He would change his fate,
He would mend the breaks.
He left that night with parting words to lead his way.
"don't you be like me."
"don't you be like me."
"don't you be like me."
And so that moonlit sky shined praise down on him.
You ain't no kind of man.
Face up your fears kid,
Fight for what you take stock in.
Out here on rolling hills,
There ain't no alibis.
Only sweat and dirt,
Only that open sky.
F you take nothing more
Than these simple words,
With your head held high kid,
You will have your day.
You can leave hardened,
I won't think twice of it.
If you got a battle back home,
You got no reason to stay."
Out there on rolling hills,
He thought of days back home.
All the pain and hurt,
His mother praying alone.
Sleep never came for him,
No rest for wicked men.
In those starless skies,
The moon shined shame on him.
He found redemption in pale saints
That took him in.
His grey eyes,
Hopefulness,
That only youth can feel
Before life sours them.
"where you from, where you been?"
The boy would ask.
He could never answer,
It was the truth he lacked.
"I'm from nowhere kid, I've been to hell and back.
I'm a loner kid, I got no grace and no tact."
He had nothing more than those simple words.
He was a runner and a coward
Always losing his way.
Till no sleep for him.
"I ain't no wicked man."
There would be no night like this for him ever again.
He would change his fate,
He would mend the breaks.
He left that night with parting words to lead his way.
"don't you be like me."
"don't you be like me."
"don't you be like me."
And so that moonlit sky shined praise down on him.
The Blues lyrics - Defeater
September, 1969.
He found himself waiting again.
Out at the crossroads, out on the lam.
This time not running, this time by right.
A road-side hitcher waits for headlights.
"the blues,
The blues
The blues won't bring me down."
That pick-up truck stopped.
"where you headed, kid?"
"back to the boardwalk coast to fix the wrong I did."
That old man would bring him just as far as he could.
His hellhound sniffing out for a trace of any good.
The hope
The hope
The hope he's chasing.
The blues
The blues
The blues he carried are dead and buried.
He found himself waiting again.
Out at the crossroads, out on the lam.
This time not running, this time by right.
A road-side hitcher waits for headlights.
"the blues,
The blues
The blues won't bring me down."
That pick-up truck stopped.
"where you headed, kid?"
"back to the boardwalk coast to fix the wrong I did."
That old man would bring him just as far as he could.
His hellhound sniffing out for a trace of any good.
The hope
The hope
The hope he's chasing.
The blues
The blues
The blues he carried are dead and buried.
Debts lyrics - Defeater
It still looks the same here after all these years.
The junkies and the steamboat men,
The sun never set on them here.
He walks to his rundown home,
Hell-bent to find his mother,
But all that fear comes back
When he is greeted by his brother.
"it's not the same"
Its not the same
Its not the same
"oh, I never thought you would come right to me.
I've spent years on these docks
Just waiting after you left,
We were left with nothing.
Every day what you did ran through me.
You selfish fuck.
It's your fault,
Can't you see?
Your addict mother is dead.
Now, are you happy?
You're left with nothing.
You're left with nothing.
Now, you'll pay your debt to me.
You coward cheating thief.
Down at those long steel tracks,
Your life is my payback."
"I bet you wish you were dead."
They walk the rails with a gun to his head.
And so he lay on the ties,
Just waiting.
Those racing thoughts through his head came rushing.
He slips out from the weight of the elder.
The younger's fear once again toppled over.
And now it's his upper hand,
He sees the steam overhead.
This will be the last the elder breathes again.
Roll on through,
That train bearing down.
As it ended his days,
He somehow knew it would always be this way.
So ends that cold heart legacy.
The junkies and the steamboat men,
The sun never set on them here.
He walks to his rundown home,
Hell-bent to find his mother,
But all that fear comes back
When he is greeted by his brother.
"it's not the same"
Its not the same
Its not the same
"oh, I never thought you would come right to me.
I've spent years on these docks
Just waiting after you left,
We were left with nothing.
Every day what you did ran through me.
You selfish fuck.
It's your fault,
Can't you see?
Your addict mother is dead.
Now, are you happy?
You're left with nothing.
You're left with nothing.
Now, you'll pay your debt to me.
You coward cheating thief.
Down at those long steel tracks,
Your life is my payback."
"I bet you wish you were dead."
They walk the rails with a gun to his head.
And so he lay on the ties,
Just waiting.
Those racing thoughts through his head came rushing.
He slips out from the weight of the elder.
The younger's fear once again toppled over.
And now it's his upper hand,
He sees the steam overhead.
This will be the last the elder breathes again.
Roll on through,
That train bearing down.
As it ended his days,
He somehow knew it would always be this way.
So ends that cold heart legacy.
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